Life Goes On

Erm... I know it's been so long, but here you go. And I wanna thank my newly found beta. hahaha. He's helping me out as much as he can. Okay then, here you go.

Part 1: “To the gentle one, hope you’ll find the right one.”

          “Hi, nice to meet you.”, a girl greeted while sitting down on her seat to her new seatmate. She smiled timidly as she was shy and not used to be the first person to take the initiative, so it was actually a big step for her. The boy, her new seat-mate, looked towards her and gave her a nod with a simple “Hi” as a reply. It was an awkward moment at first, but it was a start of something, or at least it was, for them.

          He is the cool type and doesn't smile much. He is smart in Mathematics and the girl would seek him for help. She wanted to get a better grasp in understanding the subject with his help. Despite of his cool nature, he is always willing to help her out and not a single complaint ever left his mouth.

          She is comfortable around him, she doesn't need to pretend or think about the actions she does around him. She felt free and content, probably it was why their relationship grew from seat-mates to close friends in a very short amount of time. They were literally inseparable, they went anywhere together. They would sit next to each other, having recess break with each other, playing with each other and so on.

          Their relationship grew closer as they found out they have similar taste in likes and dislikes. They would talk about the games they played for few days, or the anime they watched, the characters they like and many more. Each and every time she faced any challenges, she would go to him and he would listen attentively. He will give advices, his opinions and he never overstepped the boundary, though sometimes he could not help but tease her.

          Over the time, the girl realized he reserved his smiles for her. Not that he doesn’t smile to his friends, but he just doesn’t smile as much and as often as he does when he was with her. He would accompany her when she’s alone and she appreciates his accompany and giving her the only attention. But somehow, deep down the girl found out that something isn’t quite right. However, she doesn’t say a thing. She kept quiet and pretend that everything is still the same.

          One day, he confessed. He did it through a phone’s message. She was shocked and she didn’t know how to reply. She doesn’t want to lose her best friend, she doesn’t want to hurt him either but she knew she couldn’t run away. She wanted to keep the friendship they have, but she couldn’t use his feelings for her for it to happen. It will be cruel to him and maybe in a way to her too. That’s why she rejected him, sorry was all she could manage to say.

          His name is Sora.

Part 2: “To the charming one, may love be around the corner for you.”

          “Yo. Why are you staring into space? You’re so weird.” said a boy smiling brightly and looking down at the girl who’s sitting at her desk thinking about stuff. The girl looked up from her desk, startled. She opened and closed her mouth, she didn’t know how to respond to him, her eyes were wide and she just stare at the sunny boy. The boy stared for a few seconds and laughed:

          “Wow, you’re seriously a weirdo.” The girl got annoyed at him and glared, pursing her lips together.

          “What.Do.You.Want?” asked the girl while continue to glare at the boy.

          “Just wondering why you’re staring blankly up front… You do know the teacher told us to finish up the homework that has to be handed in right?” he said while holding up a book.

          “I know, I’ve already finished it.” she said, gritting her teeth.

          “Hmm… hostile aren’t ya, like a pig though.”

          “…What? That doesn’t even make sense.”

          “Alright! I got a nickname for you.”

          “…huh? Wait. Wha---“ her question was cut off as the boy continue his thoughts.

          “Zhu Zhu!” the girl blushed and stare dumbfounded at the boy who was still smiling brightly.

          “… and you said I was weird” she mumbled.

          And that was how they met and get acquainted with each other. She found out she’s super short standing next to him, she barely reach his shoulders. This is why he would always tease her calling her ‘ shorty zhu zhu ‘. She also found out both of them enjoyed watching same genres of series or movies and animations. They would debate with each other or discuss who was their favourite characters. They would share their different interests too and they would recommend new stories to each other.

          Nonetheless, the both quickly became well-acquainted with each other. During the last sports’ day they would ever have with each other, they gave it their all. Each categories, everyone on the same team as them went high and spirited. Everyone was cheering none stop, everyone was smiling and laughing. It was an incredible day. The next day was the basketball competition between the classes and they wanted to be number 1.

          She watched the boy practised with his team. Exhausting, but no one complained. They wanted to be number 1, it was like a class’s honour or some sort. Those who were at the sidelines like her, all wanted the same goal. Everyone was tired of being second, that’s why they went all out. The boy spotted her and gave a sunny smile and waved, she smiled as a reply, threw him a cold water bottle and shouted, “Beat ‘em!”. “Of course!” he replied.

          On the day of the competition, their class won up to semi finals and it was time to see who will be the first. It was time to face their rival class. At first, they won them. Everyone was so hyped and cheered loudly. Everyone was probably thinking about the same thing: “We finally won them.”

          But life was no fairy tale. They were told, even if they won them in the match, their basketball total points from other matches were lower than the other class. Thus, they have to have a round of rematch. It sucked, but they lost to the other class at the rematch. Everyone was frustrated and angry. All the students were then told to gather around for the total final points collected in their colour coded teams.

          However, imagine their surprise when their team, Yellow, won. Most of them forgot about the previous lost and celebrated. The girl went to the guy and gave him a hard pat on his back. He turned and spun the girl around, both happy enough as it seemed.

          Time skip~ After their exam and before they no longer meet each other…

          “… I like you.” the boy said and hugged her. The girl was stunned, it was happening again. She felt her heart broke a bit again.

          “I’m sorry…” it was all she said before she went away.

          His name is Hikaru.

Part 3: “To the understanding one, hope you’ll find a new beginning with a happy ending.”

          It was a simple meeting that they’re now friends, they were placed in the same class together and that’s how they met. As time goes by, he would always bully her. Even when his seat was not next to hers, he would find ways to be by her side and tease her ‘till no end. At first she was speechless at his attempts and tried to ignore him and hope he changes his target. But as time goes on, he didn’t seem he ever planned on changing his target and she was slowly getting pissed and annoyed at his attempts.

          After that year, they were placed in different classes but sometimes they shared classes on some subjects. There was once where she got her finger hurt and it was swollen a bit, she couldn’t bend her finger. They sat together and he noticed her finger and pointed it out that it looks ugly. She ended up giggling with a bit of tears in her eyes ‘cause it hurts. The boy took her hand and gently massaged her hurt finger. Everyone kept their mouth shut and stayed silent, pretending nothing was happening and no one pointed out that the girl was blushing.

          It was Valentine’s Day, and somehow she felt dreadful as if something was going to happen. She was afraid, she wanted to run away, but her friend was not letting her to do that. She purposely entered her class later than usual when the end of the recess bell rang. But she still saw him standing there, leaning against her desk. He saw her and walked towards her and say: “There’s 2 presents that I’ve left for you in the drawer, open it.” She did, but only when it’s after school and in a house. There was presents and a letter of confession.

          “Did you read it? What’s your reply?” texted the boy.

          “I did… and I’m sorry.” she replied.

          A year or two later, they found themselves in a weird situation. Both of them and their friends were there too, they were queuing up for the haunted house they were planning to visit. It was really crowded and she was behind of her group, her friend was calling for her. She looked up and saw 2 hands reaching out for her, she grasped them and they pulled her to the front. One was her friend, the other was the boy. It was really awkward moment yet sweet for the girl.

          Both of them, the girl and the guy ended up as prom date too. However, the girl was very clear in explaining to the guy that they won’t have a together in the future. This would be their departure.

          His name is Akio.

Part 4: “To the caring one, hope you’d move on and find a new light in your future.”

          The girl sitting at her desk looked really pissed off and if you look closer, you might see a vein threatening to pop out on the side of her forehead. Her hair was tied into a ponytail and said ponytail was being played by the boy.

          “Stop playing with it and get your hands away.” she gritted her teeth and when he didn’t, she swatted his hands away and glared but he just kept smiling.

          “Go bother someone else, you’re annoying.” she tried to be cold or at least intimidating but it didn’t work on him but only on most of the people around her.

          “I like playing with your hair.”

          “Go find someone’s stupid hair to be played with.”

          “But I like y-----“

          “Get.the.hell.away.from.me.” she paused and continued, “…before I make you.”

          That made the boy stopped toying with her hair but he didn’t move from his spot. The girl, feeling guilty that she was being rude, glanced at the boy as she was not used to him being quiet. She shifted on her seat uncomfortably and tried to ignore him as best as she could. She really doesn’t want the same thing to happen again.

          The both of them met in school and somehow they always ended up doing group projects together and it was always very fun. The girl liked the atmosphere, how long has she been dreading over little things because she was afraid. She was afraid that if she were to have fun and be happy, bad things will happen later. That was why she always try to conceal what she’s feeling. But this guy, he’s so clingy that it reached to a point that he’s able to annoy the girl.

          He was like a place for her to rant her anger and frustrations and he doesn’t seem to mind because he kept coming back, like a loyal puppy. Sometimes, even if the girl doesn’t want to admit it, his presence somehow calms her down but most of the time it just makes the girl to be at her boiling point because of his usual taunts. Even though the girl always put on an act, to be brave, to be independent, to be strong, but she was still far from them. And the boy would be there for her, silently, supporting her.

          He doesn’t leave her alone because he was afraid she would be swollen by the darkness formed in her mind. He knew she thinks a lot, day dream a lot, he was afraid she would drown in her thoughts and never get back up. He tried to spend as much of his time with the girl as possible.

          However much he doesn’t want her to distance herself from him, he still couldn’t hold it in. He confessed.

          And as usual, all she could say was “I’m sorry…”

          His name is Tadao.

Part 5: “To the sweet one, hope you’ll be able to seek your happiness.”

       Surprisingly, this time the girl went to associate with the boy. The boy was quiet in his own way, most people won’t really notice him. She wanted to get to know the boy, somehow he looks interesting. He is really lazy but he works hard when he puts his mind into it. He is an introvert and so she always teases him about it. They went out together once with another 2 friends to watch a ghost movie although they almost couldn’t watch it because of the underage regulations. Luckily, he was smart and reasoned with the staffs but turns out he was nervous as well, she laughed at him but admire his quick reflex.

          Then it happened, the girl broke down. And that time, she wasn’t able to pick herself up, she was lost, she was stressed, she felt very lonely. She wanted to call her friends, she wanted them, needed them, she needed help. But she called one of them, no one picked up. “It’s okay.” She told herself. “I will be fine.” She tried convincing herself. She ended up crying in the bathroom, locking herself in there and let the hot water do its magic. She bent down and curled, hands folded on top of her knees and head buried in them. “I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine… I’ll be fine. It’s okay. It’s nothing. I’m fine.” She kept repeating until she stopped crying. She got out of the bathroom, thought she was back to normal. She tried calling her other friend, she was busy as well. Then at that moment, the boy messaged her. And she told him, “Do you mind if I call you? And if I was crying.” He didn’t, and so she called. She thought she was already fine but once the first word got out of her mouth, she broke down again. She cried and cried and the boy stayed silent but occasionally gives her his support.

          After that incident, she kept wondering to herself. That it was weird that she found him. She likes the feeling he’s giving and she doesn’t mind much. But then, it leads to another dilemma. He became her secret holder. He became more and more important to her. The midnight chats, the company he gives her. She doesn’t know, but she was falling hard unconsciously. They would share some of their stuff but it was mostly the girl who sought him out. Until one day, he sought her out instead. She was delighted, happy, even though she told herself to stay away from him. She was beginning to realize and she doesn’t want to admit it, that’s why she doesn’t look for him anymore. She knew she was falling and she knew he doesn’t think of them that way. But every time there will be hope that suggests otherwise.

          On his birthday, she wished him during midnight which ended up her teasing jokingly that she would celebrate with him if he was free. Somehow one way and another, he was free and they planned to meet together. It was awkward. It’s been so long since meeting him but she was glad, she was able to hand out his present to him. The day ended when she was still confused yet happy.

          She knew, deep down that every fiber on her body was telling her it was a bad idea. But she was stupid, she was tired of dreaming of them having a possibilities to be together, she needed an end. Even when one part doesn’t want to lose him, the other part wanted to be free and the smallest part of her was hoping they could be together. And so, she confessed.

          She was rejected. Already knowing the ending, but the pain was still there so when she was alone, she cried.

          His name is Ryuu.

          And she was just a nobody.

THE END.

♛Shadow♛  ~